Better, Nastier

Today at work was a little better. I tried not to talk to the Creep but as the afternoon rolled in, she couldn't help but talk to me.

Sadly, I was nastier to hubby. I don't know why.

Ooops, I Did It Again!

Just when I told myself I will focus on good vibes, I go on a ranting spree, wanting to resort so physical harm no less! But I do have to admit, ranting IS therapeutic! Once I let that out I felt so much better!

I guess I'm one of those people who have to really let it out of their system, to let out steam. I'm grateful for the digital world, I get to write my journal here. I've started a couple of journals at home but I just couldn't keep it up since I tend to feel too tired at the end of a working day. Now at least I can truly write down what I want to say, without feeling the need to edit or censor myself.

I will be better at this, I promise. I will write more regularly too to practice my writing. I need to polish this skill if I want to truly use it next year. :) *wink*

Things are looking up for me! I'm excited for good things to come... Now if only I can survive the next six more months! Home stretch baby! Let's do this!

I Wanna Strangle Somebody

I do! I wanna do it! Argh! The nerve of this person talking down on me as if she is the most perfect creature to ever walk this earth!!! The gall of that person comparing me to her. When she was in my position things were perfect, we had people working for us! Too many people in fact! Now, that life at work has taken a downturn, she blames it on me! Are you frikkin' kidding me???
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The Truth Shall Set You Free

Finally, the secret is out. It's like a huge burden off my shoulder. We will have soldier on. There have been developments at work too, not too sure if its good news or bad. I am still decided to resign. I have been slowly telling some friends. Something better has got to be in store for me.

In line for this weekend, some quality bonding time with my family. Note to self: appreciate them more!

Cost cutting measures have also cut back my coffee consumption. Not really sure if its good or bad.

Been going home early from work...

Weird

today i did something weird. Earlier, I called my boss to tell him that I was sorry for having so many absences, to please do not take it as an intentional diss against him. Hmmm. So out of character! And what's even worse is that he had to assure me that it's ok... that he understood. *cringe*

I'm Writing Again

Guess where i've been earlier? I've been to the bookstore. I bought a book.. a book about... writing! big surprise there. I've decided that i will be a better writer. although i havent had the time and discipline yet to write my morning pages, i will commit to write every day, either on my blogs or here... where i can freely write my thoughts without being concerned with SEO and keywords and adsense.

I have also decided to learn more about creative writing. Although i have identified my writing field of choice, and that is personal essay and feature writing, I have also decided to broaden my horizon and teach my self basic creative writing. I have always dreamt of attending a creative writing class, and maybe someday when i do get a chance, i be better than how i am now.

I have decided to learn how to write a short story, as well as basic poetry.

I will learn this, i am decided.

Abundance

It has been a while since I last felt this way… Being a believer of The Secret, I am trying not to dwell on the negative. I am focusing on feelings of abundance. I know contracts will push through today that will augment our needs.
 
It is amazing how I've lived on one thousand pesos for a whole week! So this is how it is to live on a budget. You need to think about the things you will buy, how essential it is to purchase them and how much will it take away from my funds.
 
Checks in the mail… money pouring in… ka-ching!

My Big Fat Secret

Hubby lost his job. There, I said it. He has been out of a job since before Christmas of last year. We have been keeping appearances for the sake of my family. Every day he still goes out to "work", then comes home tired, after a long day at "work". My husband is a good man with a good heart, but he has ways that I don't approve of... Apparently, management doesn't approve as well, seeing as he got the boot days before Christmas. Talk about heartless.

I love him and I will support him, it's just that sometimes, I feel the burden... Plus the envy. It was supposed to be me. I have been wanting to resign from work since forever... Now he gets a free pass... Although unwilling, he still gets to stay away from work...that should be me :( now I can't resign from work... Not just yet.

At least that's off my chest. Hubby is out of work. Hopefully, this set up is only temporary... God is good and He has something much much better in store for us... I am sure of it!

Universe, What Are You Throwing My Way?

I am a believer of The Secret. I am conscious of the law of attraction. That is why as much as possible I try to be as positive as I can with my life. Although in the past days, I have been in a slump. I seriously contemplated on whether I was clinically depressed...again. I refused to go to work for straight days at a time. I was such in a dark place.

Earlier today, i felt happy.I decided that today I will be happy. There was a slight smile on my lips and a semi-spring on my step. I was happy... at least on my standards. until a dream snatcher took all my happiness from me! a simple closed door meeting was enough to derail my happy disposition. Grrr.

But i tell myself, tomorrow is another day. I will be happy again. I am writing, I've got new books in my ebook reader. I've got a great family. I am ready for tomorrow.

Universe, Throw some good vibes my way. I'm ready for it!

My Dreams Are Coming True

I have decided to become active again in my blogging. I need to up my online presence and my writing skills if I will ever make an online career out of this. I have activated several online blogs including this one, which I would like to use as an avenue for my "morning pages". I need to be active and good at this by December, which is my nearing Independence Day. I am finally doing it, I am a writer. My dreams are coming true!

Kristina Signing On

I have recently purchased Julia Cameron's Book: The Right to Write. It basically promotes one basic thing about writing... WRITE. She said writing is like breathing. You can learn to do it better but you need it to live. It is not an artistic release or a luxury. It is a necessity, a need.

So here I am, breathing...writing.